First with the good news. When i weighed myself on Wednesday i had lost another 1 and a half pounds. That is a grand total of 3 and a half pounds in 2 weeks. That is not bad. You are not supposed to lose more than about 2 pounds a week anyway because your body will go into starvation mode, which i am guessing is that your body would just store everything as fat to give your body long lasting energy. At the moment i am into our second day of our 5 day challenge me and Adam set ourselves. Basically everyday for 5 days we are doing a walk. not just a normal walk but a intense walk.Today we walked around Entwistle reservoir (the picture above is Entwistle reservoir). It is about 3.6 km and we do it in under 40 minutes every time now. What i have also done is buy a backpack. I have put around 13 pounds into it. So when i wear that on our walks it will burn more calories and make me become stronger and fitter. At the moment i am still loving doing my exercise with Adam, so that is why i should do it, because i never know if i will become tired of doing it. Not physically tired but Mentally tired. It does take it out of me after a bit sometimes.
Yesterday when i got to college i walked in and the receptionist told me that Simon wanted me to get the football and go outside because he was busy and he would come out in a few minutes. So i did. I played football with my taxi driver Javid for 10 minutes and still Simon didnt come out. So i went in to find him. I eventually did and when i did he said he was still busy. By the way this isnt Simon’s fault. It is the management of the place that is the problem. He is supposed to be with me in a 1 to 1 session (no other people) and yet he still had to help out in another group. So i was angry at that because if i am supposed to work with Someone and i get there and its someone else, i dont like it. I dont like change. And when i did go in to do work there wasnt anything to do. They give me some work and expect me to do it for weeks and weeks. Even though i could have completed it in a day they still want me to do the same. So that day i went home earlier because i was annoyed at the college. I have calmed down about it now.
It is my Mums operation next Monday so please hope that she will be fine. We need Mum. If she wasnt here our family would have collapsed a long time ago (probably). Please share this post if you liked it.
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WOO HOO, today i reached my next milestone on my blog. That is of course 2500 page views on my blog (i love stats and numbers of all kinds by the way). My next Target i will go for is 5000 views. I really really thank everyone who has helped me by commenting and reading my posts, you make my life better because i know people actually care about what i say and write on here. I am pleased with how my blog has progressed since my last milestone i set myself. I feel i have expressed myself a little bit better and can get the point across a bit more. I also hope you know me a little better. So out of my 128 followers i thank each and everyone of you. Im off to watch Breaking Bad season 2 now. Thanks for reading.
Ooohhhh im nice and warm now. I have been up Darwin with Adam again. It was brutal though. There must have been about 40mph winds hitting us. The wind was also really cold and on top of that it was throwing it down. On the tricky bit of our walk, when i reached the top again (3rd time in a row now without stopping) It was harder to breath than usual because the air was so cold and the wind seemed to blow all the air away. Infact i overtook Adam on that hard bit because he is still getting used to the weight in his backpack, he had added more since last time. When i reached the top I encouraged Adam to carry on as i could see he was tired. That makes a nice change. When we reached the van i was absolutely soaked and couldn’t wait to get the heaters on. On the way home Me and Adam nipped into a shop (he bought me a milkshake as a treat) but i was still shivering so I went back to the Van. I couldn’t wait to get home and get a hot bath and some food. So here i am now nice and warm and full. Yesterday it was my brother Toms 10th birthday. I woke up early to see him before he went to school. I had bought him Pokemon Y earlier this month as a early birthday present. That was because we always get Pokemon at the same time and as i was getting it i bought it for him too. I also bought him 2 painting things. They are them types of paintings that are numbered. so for example all the green stuff might be number 52, so you can colour all the number 52’s green. I think he is glad i bought it. He is also getting off Mum and Tim an indoor rock climbing session soon, this should help improve his confidence. I hardly saw Tom though because when i got home from Darwin (We started and then it thundered so we turned back) later on, he was upstairs with Adams stepson called kieron. They was playing on games and stuff like that. So i wished i could have seen him more but at least he was having a good time. So Happy 10th birthday Tom, I hope you have a great year. Oh and by the way when i weighed myself on Wednesday i had lost 2 pounds so i am super glad. Thanks for reading everyone.
This is a poem i have just tried to come up with. I thought i would have a go as i said i might on a post a few days ago. To be honest i dont think it is very good,but what do you think? I have never been good with words but as i said i thought of having a go, so here it is. Oh this poem is a acrostic poem which means the first words of each sentence spells Autism by the end of the poem. I wrote this poem about some thoughts i have about autism. Thanks for reading.
Always fighting with a troubled mind
Understanding is the key you’ll find
Trust is element that will bind
In depth conversations you will not get
Speak softly and Quietly so i will not forget
My family and friends that i am glad to have met.
Lately I have been trying to get fitter and lose weight. I am doing this in a few different ways. One of the ways is by doing more exercise. I have for the past 2 Sundays been up Darwin with Adam and weirdly i seem to do better on a Sunday than any other days in the week. i thought i would have been most tired on Sunday because it is the end of the week. Anyway if you read my post Darwin in the dark you would know there is a very steep bit half way through the walk which is almost like rock climbing. Well for the past 4 years i have always stopped on that bit of the walk. But for the past two times i have been there i really pushed myself and made it to the top of that section. It was 2 Sundays ago when i went for it. I climbed and climbed up the tricky terrain. my mind was shouting stop and my legs was obeying that command but i pushed on and actually physically talked my way up the mountain, saying things like “come on” to spurr me on and keep me going. I saw the top of the hill and felt relieved that i had reached it. I drew in massive breaths to get some air into my lungs and muscles. I was ecstatic because i had always wished i could do it and that day i did. And the next time i did it too. I am hoping i will do it every time from now on because it means i am pushing my boundaries further and further. Infact i am thinking of starting weight training soon. This involves me putting maybe a couple of kilogram of weight in a backpack and carrying it on my shoulders anytime i go for some exercise with Adam. This should make me lose weight faster and I should become stronger as well. Also if i get used to wearing a backpack with weights in it then when i go for a walk without one then i will feel as light as a feather, so i will be faster. Recently i have been having some green tea extract in tablet form. I read on the internet that they oxidize fat thus it becomes easier to burn off ( or something like that ). Those tablets are also a thermogen which means they increase your metabolism, so it should burn off excess calories and fat that i dont need. Obviously coupled with intense exercise i am hoping to be losing weight. I weighed myself Last Wednesday and i was 14 stone and 4 and a half pounds. That is around about 92 kilos and about 202 pounds i think. I could be slightly wrong on that but not by much. So when i weigh myself this Wednesday coming up i will hopefully have lost a pound or so. My overall target is to be under 14 stone. If i reach that by the end of the year i will be extremely happy.
Now i have talked about that i will talk to you about my Mum. She is going in hospital in just under 2 weeks time to have a operation. She developed a massive fibroid in her stomach so she has to have that removed. Also i think she is having a hysterectomy where i think they remove all of her womb. She is really worried about it so please pray for her if you believe in praying. Apart from that I have been in a really good mood lately (you can probably tell by my writing) because of my fitness is getting better and i am hopefully losing weight. I think this is one of the longest posts i have done. If you have enjoyed this post please share it, whether it be on Facebook or Twitter. Trust me i will be extremely grateful. Also follow me on twitter, here is the link. TWITTER. And as always thank you for reading and for the support.
Yes he has done it. My brother Adam has created a Blog. He has also created his first post. He rang me up about 20 minutes ago telling me, and he asked me to read it and check it first before i tell you about it. He was excited i think which is good because he will probably be proud of himself. I read it and i think his first post is pretty good. It is a lot better than my first post that i did. Though i must tell you he is not the best speller in the world ( He-He ) but never mind, im sure his spelling will get better. But he is pretty funny (dont tell him i said that). Let me tell you what Adam is to me. Obviously he is my big brother. He is a pain in the backside. But most importantly he has helped me get through some difficult times. Like when i used to get stressed he would go out of his way and take me for a drive or a stress busting walk. He is also someone who i look up to because he has got a lot of self belief and confidence in his own ability’s (sometimes) and i find that encouraging and something i would like to aim for. So Please click on this link and see what you think. Leave him a comment if you want to. I’m sure he will be appreciative. Thank-you.
I think i have a strange coping mechanism. But a brilliant one if i am right. Basically i think my mind shuts off in stressful situations. For example like the other day when i went to the nursing home and saw Cecilia for the first time in about 2 years. I didn’t sleep that night because i kept on thinking about it. The images where swimming around my head. I was thinking how can someone end up like this. I was always fond of Cecilia so it made the images worse and made me feel more upset about it. So that was that and i didn’t sleep. But the next day the images inside my mind went a bit duller. Like a photograph with a cloud in-front of it. That is exactly what my mind does and i think it is more than just forgetting it naturally. I think i might have a natural defense/coping mechanism. My mind has done this in the past about things that would keep doing my head in thinking about them. Sometimes when this has happened my mind completely fades the picture out of my head till it is like a picture inside a smoke filled room. When that happens it is really hard to picture that image even though it was shining brightly in my head a few days before it. What do you think?
I also wanted to talk to you about some other things about my blog. I was thinking maybe i could create some poems and write them on here. Trust me i am not very good at poems but i could have a go. I just like the inventiveness of them and i think the people who can write a good poem are gifted and clever. My mum wrote an absolutely fantastic poem once. One day if she lets me i will write it on here for you to enjoy. I also wanted to get back into creating a few tunes. I used to use Acid Pro when i was younger and create some on there and i really used to enjoy doing them. 1 last thing before i go, One of my followers on here said one day i should think about publishing some of these post as a book. He said that they would help people learn more about Autistic people. Like a Mum who struggles with understanding her kids thoughts for example. I would absolutely love it if i could publish it as a book. But there are a few things that i am not sure about. Like is my writing clear enough and good enough? And i wouldn’t even know where to start about getting it edited and published. Do you think this blog is good enough? any help would be appreciated.
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