About 2 posts ago i told you i would tell you about the other night where i had a hard time. It was Forest Gump that started it. By the way this is spoilers if you haven’t seen forest gump before. Im sure you have. You have seen me write about this before.It was about people getting old and deteriorating and eventually dying. Because that’s what happens in Forest gump. his mum ends up dying. And so does his friend in the army. Bubba. And also his girlfriend in the end. this is what i hated. I think it was combined with other stuff at the time as well but by the end of forest gump i was very upset. I felt really down and couldnt be bothered speaking to anyone. I wanted to go to sleep and to forget everything for a few hours. And this time i was even closer to self harming again. Even closer than when i saw Cecilia a couple of months ago. I hated it. Mum obviously knew i was upset because she kept on asking me what was up. She was very worried but i didn’t want to tell her because i think i should be over stuff like this now. People on here told me i shouldn’t feel weak when i get upset but i still do. I feel a hopeless cause. After a short while i went and sat in my bedroom in the dark and leant against my door. It was nicer in the dark because it feels like you are cocooned. you are the Caterpillar and the dark is the chrysalis. I was still upset but liked the sense of emptiness. 5 minutes later Tim and mum came to my door. They asked would i like to go for a drive. I didnt answer. They carried on speaking for a few more minutes and when they knew i wasnt going to speak they told me Tim will wait downstairs until i was ready to go. They know a drive settles me down the most so that is why they offered me a drive. I went down after a few more minutes. I got my big cosy coat on and grabbed my PS Vita. I have lots of music on my PS Vita. We went and i sat in the backseat with my hood up listening to Michael Buble. I feel safe doing this and i can slowly settle back down. I especially love drives when its dark or raining. Preferably both together. I love it. I was feeling a bit better as we pulled up back at my house. I got on with my usual routine after this. I get so upset about people getting older because i cant stand thinking about living without my Nan or grandad or Mum and Tim or my brothers or my sister. This wont get better in time but i hope to control it better. Later that night when i was watching breaking bad my mum came into my room. She asked me what was wrong and i told her. I find it hard explaining my feeling in words( actually saying them) but this time i did it. So i was sort of pleased. Thanks for reading.
I love watching comedies when i have to settle down at night for bed, so i thought i would share some of my all time favorite series. I think all of these are British so you may not find these ones in America or other places , but i am sure if you searched around you would probably find them if you are interested in watching them.
1. Only Fools And Horses
2. One Foot in the Grave
3. Keeping up appearances
5. Some mothers do ave em
Trust me all of these are very funny. If you have seen any of these leave a comment and tell me which ones you have watched. Thanks for reading.
When i will return to college i will feel like Harry Potter. Do you know when he returns after the summer holidays and he immediately feels at home i will feel sort of like that. Not that i will feel like im going home but i am going back to where people know me better there. Thats why when i go to college i can speak to almost anyone there. Its because they know about Autism and they understand the right and wrong things to do and not to do. I don’t hardly ever speak to anyone whos not in my family when i am not in college because for example they would wonder why i don’t do eye contact and other things like that. So that’s why i cant really speak to people outside of college and i also get really nervous because of this as well.
Yesterday as well i went to the Trafford Center with my family and my step dad preordered the PS4 for me. Basically i gave him the £20 deposit and he went to the till and did it all for me (i am grateful). They gave me a receipt of it and i can basically can keep paying bits of off the price. I am very excited for the PS4 and i will be very glad when it comes out. I am also going to start saving up for Assassins creed 4 as well which looks a great game. Oh and by the way i probably wont get the PS4 on release date now because i was to late preordering it. If you preordered it before the 6th August you was guaranteed it on launch day. But because i was late i will get one from the second batch unless people cancel, then i will move up the list.
Thanks for Reading.
1. Blue Roses – Jimmy Nail https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Ko_9w9Uh5g
2. In The Ghetto – Elvis Presley https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6am8V5KNJ4A
3. Diana – Paul Anka https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bh0doCIySw4
4. Goodbye To Love – The Carpenters https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ueHgJZST6YM
5. Ben – Jackson 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cRTJ2xVr0PA
- Great Music #1 (paulwilliamharrisonblog.wordpress.com)
Hi everyone. Has anyone heard of that new thing what they are doing in certain cinemas now. I don’t know if its just in the UK where they are doing it but i think it should be around the world. Basically what cinemas are doing is they are having a autism friendly showing once a month ( i think it should be more frequently ). Here is a list of what they are doing differently compared to a normal viewing of a film.
- The lights will be on low
- The volume will be turned down
- There will be no trailers at the beginning of the film
- You’ll be able to take your own food and drinks
- You’ll be able to move around the cinema if you like
I think that this is a great idea for typical autistic people but i wouldn’t like the fact that people will be moving around all over the cinema. On the plus side though i would love that the sound would be a lot lower than usual. This is why i don’t go into the cinemas these days, it is because i have sensitive hearing and i don’t like loud sounds or sounds that try to scare you ( what makes you jump ). Overall i think its a fantastic idea where autistics peoples parent can take their child and actually enjoy the movie instead of worrying if their child would start being loud or need to get out because of the noise. What do you think? Thanks for reading.