About 2 posts ago i told you i would tell you about the other night where i had a hard time. It was Forest Gump that started it. By the way this is spoilers if you haven’t seen forest gump before. Im sure you have. You have seen me write about this before.It was about people getting old and deteriorating and eventually dying. Because that’s what happens in Forest gump. his mum ends up dying. And so does his friend in the army. Bubba. And also his girlfriend in the end. this is what i hated. I think it was combined with other stuff at the time as well but by the end of forest gump i was very upset. I felt really down and couldnt be bothered speaking to anyone. I wanted to go to sleep and to forget everything for a few hours. And this time i was even closer to self harming again. Even closer than when i saw Cecilia a couple of months ago. I hated it. Mum obviously knew i was upset because she kept on asking me what was up. She was very worried but i didn’t want to tell her because i think i should be over stuff like this now. People on here told me i shouldn’t feel weak when i get upset but i still do. I feel a hopeless cause. After a short while i went and sat in my bedroom in the dark and leant against my door. It was nicer in the dark because it feels like you are cocooned. you are the Caterpillar and the dark is the chrysalis. I was still upset but liked the sense of emptiness. 5 minutes later Tim and mum came to my door. They asked would i like to go for a drive. I didnt answer. They carried on speaking for a few more minutes and when they knew i wasnt going to speak they told me Tim will wait downstairs until i was ready to go. They know a drive settles me down the most so that is why they offered me a drive. I went down after a few more minutes. I got my big cosy coat on and grabbed my PS Vita. I have lots of music on my PS Vita. We went and i sat in the backseat with my hood up listening to Michael Buble. I feel safe doing this and i can slowly settle back down. I especially love drives when its dark or raining. Preferably both together. I love it. I was feeling a bit better as we pulled up back at my house. I got on with my usual routine after this. I get so upset about people getting older because i cant stand thinking about living without my Nan or grandad or Mum and Tim or my brothers or my sister. This wont get better in time but i hope to control it better. Later that night when i was watching breaking bad my mum came into my room. She asked me what was wrong and i told her. I find it hard explaining my feeling in words( actually saying them) but this time i did it. So i was sort of pleased. Thanks for reading.
wooo im back. I hope you are all doing well? On Friday me and my brother Adam actually finished that outside job. And because we actually did a really good job the woman who’s house it was gave him more work to do. So on Monday we will go back and strip and paper a wall about 25 ft long. It should only take a maximum 4 hours.
Recently on YouTube i have found 2 new channels i really enjoy watching. The first one is PrankvsPrank. On this channel its exactly what it says on the tin, one of them pranks the other one and then the other person has to get their own back with an even better prank. Click the pic and it should take you there. And the second one is the same people but it is just daily vlogs that they do. The channel is called BFVSGF and they go to all different places whilst vlogging. I especially like it when they go into the shops because i like to look in a American shop and see all the cookies and sweets because here in England all our sweets are dull and boring compared to American ones. I would love to go and live in America for a few years.
I don’t think I can blog as much as i would like over my 6 week holidays because i think i will be helping my brother quite a bit and i get really tired afterwards. But dont worry i will try and write new posts when I can.
I am now going to do a new post called Great Music 2, so if you wait around for 15 minutes you can see it. Basically on my great music posts i give you YouTube links to really really good songs.
Thanks for reading.
My family and me have just been to the park and then to Starbucks. first thing we did at the park was me and my brother Tom climbed down a hill at the side of this very shallow river (we was pretending to do rock climbing). We was pretending that because he might be going to a indoor rock climbing place soon in Manchester for his confidence because at the moment he is always shy and prefers to be on a computer. Then we all went on a big field where we took turns hitting a tennis ball miles into the air and the others had to catch it. It was actually a really good game and i did some great catches. It was nice to see my sister Jess joining in as well because she doesn’t like doing much exercise because she gets tired easy. It does get annoying though because when we go on walks and there’s a hill we have to turn back because she is too lazy to go up it. When it was time to go my brother Tom had a quick go on the climbing frame and swings and then we went. After the park we went and got one of my all time favorite drinks from Starbucks (i know Starbucks is very expensive but it was a one off). It is called a chocolate creme. Basically it is like a hot chocolate but cold with crushed ice in it and creme at the top (optional). I highly recommend one of these drinks they are delicious. When we got the drinks from the drive-through at Starbucks we went for a nice drive through the hills. I loved it because it has been about 25 degrees today here in Bolton ( it rarely goes above 20) so it was great to get a nice cold drink and cool off as we drove through the hills. Its been a great day.