Yes he has done it. My brother Adam has created a Blog. He has also created his first post. He rang me up about 20 minutes ago telling me, and he asked me to read it and check it first before i tell you about it. He was excited i think which is good because he will probably be proud of himself. I read it and i think his first post is pretty good. It is a lot better than my first post that i did. Though i must tell you he is not the best speller in the world ( He-He ) but never mind, im sure his spelling will get better. But he is pretty funny (dont tell him i said that). Let me tell you what Adam is to me. Obviously he is my big brother. He is a pain in the backside. But most importantly he has helped me get through some difficult times. Like when i used to get stressed he would go out of his way and take me for a drive or a stress busting walk. He is also someone who i look up to because he has got a lot of self belief and confidence in his own ability’s (sometimes) and i find that encouraging and something i would like to aim for. So Please click on this link and see what you think. Leave him a comment if you want to. I’m sure he will be appreciative. Thank-you.
Well happy new year. Remember in the last post how i said that on Christmas day i kept my brothers sons entertained. Well one of them is in hospital. He is called William. he is his youngest child (only 4). My brother Adam said he named him after me and our Grandad which was very very nice of him. my full name is Paul William Harrison and my grandad is called William Harold Gee even though his friends call him Harold, which i have never understood. but anyway on New years day William started to go downhill. I dont know exactly why they took him to the emergency doctor, but they decided too and it was a good job they did. The doctor sent him straight to the hospital in an ambulance. Adam must have been very worried because usually they only send you to the hospital in an ambulance if it is an emergency. When William got there apparently they did a lot of tests on him. Later on they told Adam that they was looking for signs of meningitis. Which is bad, I think it has killed a lot of children. But later on they discovered he had a really bad sinus infection. His face kept getting more swollen and swollen. In-fact Adam had to mark his face with a marker so the doctors could tell how far it was spreading. It kept getting worse and worse. William and Adam had to sleep there that night. Well i say sleep. The doctors was in every 2 hours taking blood. And at one point William was crying and not letting them take any more blood because all he wanted to do was sleep as it was 3 in the morning. So Adam had to wrap an apron around his own head and do silly dances until William settled down enough to have more blood taken. At one point there was even talk of an emergency operation. Because i think there was a cyst in his sinuses that had burst. It sound horrible but that’s what happened. After 24 hour Will started to respond to the medication he was having. So he will probably be allowed home tomorrow which is great news. He would have been in hospital about 3 or 4 days. Adam and his girlfriend Pauline (Williams Mum) have been taking turns to look after him at night. But at least Will is on the mend. A weird thing is though my cousin called Alec was texting his best friend. His best friend didnt answer for ages. Then Alec got a text. But it wasnt him, it was off his sister saying that he was at intensive care and had been put into an induced coma. For a similar thing William had got. It just shows how bad things could have got for Will but fortunately he is getting better now. So happy new year? Not for Some people. Thanks for reading and wish William to make a speedy recovery and Alec’s best friend as well. Thanks.
last Sunday it was my 21st birthday. For about 3 days before it i was worried about it though. Mainly this was because a lot of things change on your birthday. For one you get a lot more attention than if it was any other day. I don’t like much attention because i seem to get me a bit nervous and anxious. Another thing is the anticipation of it. You just want things to be smooth and not get people ringing you up all the time saying “Happy birthday” (i don’t like speaking on the phone to people). But it came and went and by the end of the day i felt really ill in my stomach. This was because I don’t like things to end, especially when i was enjoying the day. Yes i actually enjoy it when it gets here, it is just before and after the event that i get worked up about. So anyway, i woke up on Sunday and had a wash whilst i waited for Mum to get up. So we went downstairs and waited for my little brother Tom to come down as well. Then i started to open my cards first. I got 11 cards altogether throughout the day and some of them had money in it. Then i opened my presents. I had 2 presents. 1 was of Mum and the other was off nan. I had said to Mum and Nan when they asked what i wanted was something to remember my big birthday by, because your 21st birthday is supposed to be the biggest birthday. And also it was because on my 18th birthday i got a gold ring off my Mum (which i still wear to this day) so i will always remember it. So i opened the first present,it was a gift bag (off my Nan and Grandad) and inside there was a bag of some nuts with honey on and also some chocolate popcorn. And another long thin box. I opened it and inside was a solid silver bracelet (about 1oz) to go around my wrist. It was super shiny. And i was very grateful. Every-time i look at this bracelet now i will always remember my Nan and Grandad. And on the table where my cards and present lay i picked up the other box off my Mum and step-dad. I opened that box and inside was a chain with a dog-tag on it. I really like this chain because on the dog-tag itself there is a compass engraved on it on one side with 5 black onyx stones. 1 in each corner and 1 in the center. on the other side of it there is another small compass etched near the top and underneath that there are some word saying “My dear Son, forge your own path, Anything is possible”. My Mum chose this because of those words. She said those words kind of suit me. I am pleased to have got these presents. A few hours later we went shopping with some of my money. I wanted to get bear grylls book “true Grit” and also Lost season 3 because i have 1 and 2 and really enjoy it, and finally a Michael Buble CD. We only found the CD but the next day we got the book, and Lost is being brought home by Mum now as i write this ( she has gone to Manchester with my Sister). So I am now 21, it only seems 5 minutes ago when i turned 18. Time goes really quick when you are doing stuff. I thought this post was essential to write on my blog, 1 because it was a big birthday and 2 it shows some people get worried about things that other people don’t mind. Oh and 1 more thing, Yesterday for a treat my Nan cooked me 2 lamb shanks with mint sauce and gravy and mash and even more. I could hardly walk afterwards because i was just too full. I would like to thank my Mum, Nan and my Brother Adam for making my birthday less stress full. Thanks for reading
Today is my Dads birthday. Remember i have not seen him for years even though he only lives a few miles away. When i have not seen someone for a bit i struggle to see them again. I get even more nervous about seeing someone who i have not seen for a bit than meeting someone new. I don’t know why, but my body just gets more nervous. Anyway my family knows i am like this but they still expect me to be “autistic free” for a day whilst i go and give him the present and the card i have bought him (i am not going). It is more my Brother and my step-dad that expects me to do this. They both say i should grow up and go and go and see him with the present. They are both stupid because if i could just drop having Autism, i would have done it ages ago. I wish i was like everyone else, full of confidence and able to do these things. I would be at a proper college trying to get loads of qualifications so that when i leave i could get a really good job worth thousands of pounds a year. But i am stuck with all these obstacles in front of me. I have been overcoming some of these obstacles over the past 7 years. Like recently i have been going into a little convenience shop by myself while my Brother waits in the car. I only nip in for a drink but a few years ago i would never have thought i would go into a shop by myself. In fact it was only yesterday that i was at the dentists and had 2 fillings. Again i thought i would never be able to do it but i did. So i am making progress slowly. But they shouldn’t expect me to go and see my Dad. I would find it too difficult. I cannot make Autism disappear but overtime i will get better at controlling it. Do you think it is unfair of them to ask me to drop autism? Because i do, i cant change who i am and how i feel about certain situations. Thanks for reading.
Yesterday i heard some more bad news. My first disabled nurse called Christine has died. Thats the 4th person who has died within our family and friend circle within about 4 or 5 months. First there was our dog William, then Dave (uncle) then Jack ( dads wife’s dad), Then Christine. She was really nice though Christine. She did stuff like paint our garden shed with me and she took me up in the hills for a drive once because i wanted to see the bats, and she was the only person who would do it at that time. She was on holiday when she died. In Mexico. Her son who is about 16 is stuck over there by himself. i cant imagine how he must feel. But that got me thinking. Every night for the past 3 months as i lay in bed i have been praying to whoever controls us that he/she looks after all of my family and all of my family’s friends ( i don’t know who i am praying to by the way, i guess i am hoping someone will listen). He hasn’t done any of that. In fact quite the opposite. I don’t know how i feel about people dying. i have always said a meteor should come down and wipe out Humans because of all the bad things in the world like People who shoot kids or beat them up or turn them into slaves. But for every bad person in the world there are 100 good ones. Thats the problem with me, i cant decide whats best because my mind flicks between the good points and the bad points of a debate. I am just fed up this year of all our family’s bad luck. i dont feel as upset about Christine dying now because i am used to death this year. I have become numb to it for the time being. But i am not going to pray anymore because since i did nothing has gone right. My mum and Nan have been going to church for the past few years and they seem to be happier since they went. But they have become not as nice as before. Like once my Nan said that me and my brother are not going to heaven because we don’t believe in a god. We believe other things but not a “GOD” as in other people know it. So my Nan pretty much said we where going to hell. It seems they went to church to find God but came home possessed by the Devil. So it seems religion isn’t all its cracked up to be. I want to believe in God but i have seen how it affects people. A lot of wars are started because of religion. Why all this death from a supposedly good thing. Thanks for reading, please like this post but most importantly comment. Thank you very much.
There has been a lot of things going on lately and some of them really really bad. Firstly one of my uncles has died called Dave. I didn’t really know him but he was family. Basically he got diagnosed with cancer a few moths ago and they gave him 6 months to live. And up until a few weeks ago he was doing really well and would have lived well past his expected 6 months. But one day he was about to come downstairs and he fell all the way down. And after he had been to the hospital and got back home he couldn’t walk very well so he had to stay in bed. And i think this is what made him give up. Because even when he had been diagnosed he had still been carrying on with his life like normal. He even went to work still and played golf. And because he couldn’t do any of that one day in the morning ( about 10 to 8 ) he died. It is very sad because imagine if you had cancer and then fell downstairs causing you to not be able to do any of the things you love. My mum said he was a very strong person. And a few hours later My Dads wife’s Dad also died of cancer and old age. I didn’t know him very well and i only saw him a few times when i was younger. He was a nice man as well.
On a lighter note, i have been doing well at college and have started to become less nervous about going there. I will tell you a funny story about college. It happened just before the 6 week holidays. Me and my support worker (Adam) was playing football on the grass near some bird tables and we was taking turns in the net. And when i was taking shots at him i tried to curl the ball around the bird table and it hit it. it rolled on the grass for about 6 or 7 foot and while it was doing so it literally unraveled itself and broke. It lay there with nails sticking out of it where there had previously been a surrounding edge. Adam was cracking up and laughing a lot and that was when he called it me. He called me Captains Birdsdie (because of all the nails sicking up out of it). I was also really laughing and couldn’t control myself. I thought i would tell you this because today i found a broom to sweep away a puddle in front of the net because my taxi driver ( Javid ) was going in the net. So i did a good deed for him. I placed the broom at the side leaning against a wall. And about 3 shots in i crossed the ball in to Adam to head it and the wind took the ball and swerved it right onto the broom. And because the broom was propped up leaning against the wall it just completely snapped and collapsed in on itself. I was joking later with them asking them to ” help me hide the evidence”.
So there has been a few ups and downs for me lately. Thanks for reading.
We got George back on the Tuesday night and everyone played with him before he went upstairs and slept in a dog crate sort of thing in my sister Jessica’s room. He slept really well that night. He is really playful and loves playing with all of his toys he has got. The only problem with him at the moment is that he is always trying to get peoples shoes, especially the laces. And the other day he actually tried to run off with my Nans sandal. He picked it up from the hall and tried to run outside with it, ( we have a garden enclosed on all sides with fences, so he cant escape ). And as he was going out of the door into the garden the sandal went over the edge of the step and he went with it because it was too heavy for him. My Nan and Grandad love him but grandad plays with him for a bit and then puts him back in his crate because he is hard work for him to look after. But he says he would still like a dog.
I’m nearly into the swing of things now at college. I have met all of the people i will be working with this year, so i am slowly getting used to them all again. I have asked could i do some qualifications at college because i thought whilst i am there for a few more years i could at least try to leave with something to actually show for it. Something tangible and real instead of just finishing this 3 year challenge. I have asked could i possibly do a Maths qualification, and a Science one and possibly a English one. I may also be changing one of the days to Friday instead of perhaps a Wednesday or Thursday because they play sports on a Friday.
Also my Step-dad went to Paris with his work for 4 days. He is back now being his miserable old self (i am not joking). He brings everyone down with him as well. I suppose he will always be like that now. But it is his birthday tomorrow and he does a lot for our family so i wish him all the best for tomorrow
Thanks For Reading.